CAUTION: Woman In Progress

I feel like I'm going crazy, y'all. I sense all these big changes coming as though all these small changes I've recently made in my life are preparing me for something major. I'm equal parts excited about it and terrified of it. Partly because I don't know exactly what's coming but also partly because I think I might have an inkling of what it is. I almost hate to type this out loud because it makes me feel really vulnerable to say...especially since I'm likely ten shades of wrong, but...I think my heart is starting to wake up and remind me that it's still in there and maybe wants a little bit more than the spinster hermit life I've made for myself. And perhaps, just maybe, God is preparing me for a relationship. Ugh. I feel pathetic just even thinking about it. I gave up that ghost ten years ago, or so I thought. I bought my house. I had my Libs. I'm really good at taking care of myself. I have a great support system of friends and famil...

😟Last Monday, at just a few minutes past 12pm, my last remaining grandfather slipped the bonds of this earth and made his way home to our Heavenly Father. He's no longer suffering, no longer in pain. He was ready to go. He PRAYED to go. And now that he's gone I'm happy for him, even though I'm sad for me and the rest of his beloved family. There's a PawPaw shaped hole in our hearts that won't ever be filled but I can't begrudge him his freedom because he is exactly where I want to be someday. I don't know how this loss will affect our family in the long run. He was the glue that held us all together so it's a little worrisome to think that we may not ever all be together again now that he's gone. I have uncles who I rarely saw as it was. Will they ever come back to visit? Will my cousins who live out of state? My family is so important to me. I'm so tied to them in so many ways...through memories, shared experiences, and love. Without ou...

So much is changing in my life these days. Small things. Big things. Good things. Bad things. Health things. Work things. Financial things. Family things. I feel as though all these things are preparing me for some super big change that's coming. Good or bad super big change, I can't tell yet. But I feel it coming. Health things: Not only am  I working on improving my overall physical health (reversing prediabetes, mostly), I'm also working on my dental health. My dental genetics are terrible. I come from a long line of peeps on my dad's side with bad teeth. Bad in the sense that they are prone to cavities and are overall weak. Well, after two years of getting  filling after every 6 month check-up, I finally got myself in gear and started really working on improving my dental health. For the past seven months I have faithfully brushed my teeth twice a day and rinsed with ACT anticavity mouthwash. I'm still working on making flossing an every day thing but I'...